With Meaning

It is very important to me that tattoos have meaning.  I found one I liked, but I put the pattern in a drawer.  It's a celtic tattoo of three horses in a circle.  From time to time, I took it out and looked at it to make sure I still liked it.  It's a permanent investment.  I wasn't sure why I was so drawn to it, but I held on to the pattern for a couple of years.  In the meantime, I went through a separation, a wrong-headed reconciliation, then another separation.  I was traumatized by my personal life and stuck in the pain.  I took out the tattoo pattern and realized what that tattoo meant to me.  I used to live on a cattle ranch, and we had horses.  Horses prefer to go forward rather than backing up.  For me, my horse tattoo pattern was telling me to move forward.  So I went down and had it done.  Anytime I'm tempted to look into the past and think about my regrets, I remember my tattoo and think, "Move forward."
EternalCynic EternalCynic
41-45, F
Nov 5, 2011