In a Crowd of Relatives With Maybe Half a Soulmate

Yesterday, for the first time in my long life I met relatives I never knew I had until this last year.  They are all nice, upwardly mobile people.  I was probably the "poorest" one there as far as earthly goods is concerned.  It was a study in spirit for me.  But, today, I'm totally emotionally exhausted and have been unable to get out of bed for more than an hour at a stretch.  It made me sooo tired to interact with these people I hardly know.  I know my "poor in spirit" showed.  Or is it that my spirit is on a different level than theirs?  I wish I could figure this out because it has haunted me all my life. 
moxiesurvivor moxiesurvivor
66-70, F
13 Responses May 21, 2007

Thanks EB - you made my night - I do have different aspirations than most of them. They are caught up in the "beautiful people syndrome of CA" and in material things. That is wonderful and it gives freedom of a different type than freedom of spirit. Freedom of spirit is my main goal in life. I was raised in that environment - achieve, achieve and those old ways come back to haunt me sometimes. Get me to an ashram! LOL

I don't know you well, but I think I know you well enough from your writings to answer this question. You may have been the poorest at the gathering financially, but I seriously doubt you were the poorest is spirit. Not to cast aspersions on your relatives, about whom I know nothing, but they'd have to ho a ways to match your spirit.<br />
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When it comes down to it, we all pursue what's important to us in life. I suspect you are leaving in your wake a trail of friends touched by your spirit, and in my book, that's more important than a tract home!

Yes, keeping away from situations that bring us down is part of the deal as far as I can see. I was the "star" when I was a kid and my sister was jealous - she was the brat. We exchanged roles when we were in our 30's. She made some wise choices as she got older.

I lived with THAT problem for 55 years and finally got out of it. Nasty business.My sister was always jealous.She was the smartest,pretty,more skinny, ..you name it.But she was jealous of me.Treated me like garbage all my life.She was always worried that I might get something better. I never did. She even said that with HER luck, I would probably OUT live her!! That was it..I walked out of that and have not seen her in 4 years. It's all about what a good person you have been, at the end of the day.Well for me anyway.That's what people will remember you for.

Ah, I wish that were true wiseowl. My sister the jet pilot outshines me in just about every area that is apparent to the naked eye - I'm sure there are a few areas where I shine. And, I shouldn't even be concerned with that - you know that old sibling rivalry has to rear it's ugly head every once in awhile.

You sound perfectly lovely to me. I bet everyone went home and said," isn't she a doll,so smart and quick in wit?"? Just be you and that is enough. Smile

Moxi, <br />
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When you feel limited, it means the Spirit of Oppression is afraid you will break out and do well. <br />
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I learned this a long time ago. <br />
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When there are obstacles, it usually means there is a way to make them stepping stones or directionals to go a certain way. <br />
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Keep talking to the angels and the Spirit of Goodness, ask specific questions and stand up and build. <br />
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Mwoa and X O, <br />
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R

Thanks Radiant - excellent view!

Moxi,<br />
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Success is obtained on many levels. You have stated this before. <br />
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If you have to pick and choose the "success" that is most important, what would it be?<br />
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Since you have a couple good friends, and you wake up each day, not facing imminent death by cancer or some other thing, you are having moments of success. <br />
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Since you are not living in a tack home, you have part of your desires.<br />
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Since you can choose to take a hot shower or bath, and since you can choose which desert you want to eat today, and since you can choose who you will have in your life, and since you can choose to be or not to be married, and which movie to see, and which book to read, and wether you will cover your head with a scarf or a hat, you live in a country that is succcessful in offering you FREEDOM to choose. <br />
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The rest of your life is up to you. Warmth said, there are factors that contribute to success and things that delay it or that speed it up. <br />
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You call yourself moxisurvivor. You are well able to take and take again and to build and tear down and rebuild.<br />
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Expect that all your desires are fulfiled by your BUILDING.<br />
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BUILDING oftn means some tearing fown as well.<br />
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The point is that you kep the vision of your life in front and that you keep trying to get thre.<br />
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MEANWHILE ENJOY the PROCESS of building!!<br />
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R

My question is - how do they do the things they do? I aspire for many of the things they aspire to but something always gets in the way. I look at all the "tract homes" - the "ticky tacky boxes" from the song in the 50's or 60's and wonder about those people and their lifestyle. I could never live in a tract - I'd get claustrophobia I think. And yet those homes are so nice and "clean cut".

Upwardly mobile is, as in with balloons, usually a sign of being filled with nothing but hot air. Fill yourself up with the warmth and life of earth, and make your home in the solid world. :)

Wow, thanks for your thoughts. Made my day!

Maybe you have an older spirit and don't have to be "upwardly mobile" Maybe you have more peace in you heart more contentment in your soul. Maybe you are wiser.