For Years Now

I don't know if I truly feel comfortable sharing this, but f[u]ck it..

I do and perhaps always will have this urge to be the first to punish myself for my own "wrong doings" *sigh*
CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick
7 Responses Jul 21, 2010

You are precious, don't hurt yourself, you are PRECIOUS! You are good, you are a child of the universe, no less than the moon and the stars, you have a right to be here.....

you are sweet Aydasha<br />
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Alwayslovely, yeah? well it sucks! :(

hahaha, sweet is far from the word I would consider myself :P, but thanks :D!

Thank you Aydasha! You're so sweet :)

I know the feeling. When things go wrong, when I upset someone, I want to do the same. Just know that you're not alone.

Thanks Anto815..I try to not think about it, but this makes up a portion of what is my life<br />
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This self doubt and self hatred eats at me..

Hi Boy we are so much alike! I feel the same way as you! I try to remember why I want to punish myself. I can"t recall But some how I still know why! Sometimes I wish I wish I was somewhere where I can hear nothing not even a sound, not even as I am breathing nothing at all..... Please try to think of other things I know it is hard but Life goes on whether you want it too or not! Good Luck. Please let me know how your doing because I really do understand!... Anto815