Controlling The Urge

Been controlling it the last few days and it has come to the point where I don't think I can anymore. I have been self-harming the last 10 years and have only managed 6 months not doing it. Its been a week or two since I last did it I think, and now its as though I need to. I have started pulling at my hair (I used to suffer really bad with Trichotillomania) and scratching but it just doesn't feel the same. I have BPD and hurting myself or drinking copious amounts of alcohol is my only release. Now I am living with my family i find I cant do it! 
enchantedjinx89 enchantedjinx89
22-25, F
1 Response May 15, 2012

Hi, I feel the same, i have been self-harming for about 18 years and have also got BPD, I've been sectioned so many times for trying to take my life, i haven't self-harmed for about a year now but still struggle with the urges, i did a course called dialectical behavioural therapy (DBT) which was sooooo difficult at first but eventually it really helped me learn how to manage my emotions and behaviour better then i did before. I hope you find some release very soon to help you.

Hi I haven't been sectioned, have been close to it in all honesty, ended up in hospital so many times due to attempted suicide etc, but always managed to wangle my way out again not sure how looking back on it now! I do hope I find a productive release. I had never heard of DBT until the other day. xx