I Am Lying Here Alone Again

pondering my usefulness in this world. I am heavily medicated to control depression thoughts but I can still manage to think about ways to my end. It has been so many years of having headaches and pain managed by drugs and alcohol. Now can I actually finish myself off, I don't know. I know my dog will feel orphaned by my end and his wagging tail just keeps me moving on to the next day thru a non-ending pain.
Extinguish Extinguish
41-45, M
2 Responses Dec 9, 2012

yes, but I don't feel like bringing them down with my sadness.

Nobody should ever feel alone...do you have someone you trust to talk to?