My Friend And I

It's one thing to feel suicidal. It's another for your friend to feel suicidal.

See, if my friend feels suicidal, I am ready to steal an axe and chop whoever head made him/her feel that way.

Now, things get complicated when the one who's making her feel suicidal is me. And nothing I've been trying to do is helping.

We both been through our 1st break-up a few months ago. Our break-ups were 2 days apart. We supported eachother, cried into eachothers arms, help eachother get through this.

A month after my 1st break-up, I got my 2nd boyfriend. Well, my boyfriend...he broke up with me today.

I didn't want to cry. I didn't want to make my friend see me suffer again. So I tried to hide it from her. I ended crying into someone else's arms.

She got mad at me. We are still both hurting over our 1st love. I'm hurting over my 1st love, AND 2nd love. She got mad because I cried into someone's else arms. She got mad because I tried to hide the fact I'm crying.

Later today, I texted her saying I wanted to kill myself. Someone else replied, saying she tried to kill herself. She also texted me, saying how much wrong I did and she didn't want to talk to me. She completly ignored the fact I said I wanted to kill myself.

I texted her mom, informing her to watch out for my friend.

But who's going to watch over me?

I wanna die.