It Was So Intense...i had contemplated suicide several times, but i had never gotten so close. so i was at school, and i was having a terrible day cause i hadn't heard from my boyfriend for a few days, and i was super stressed because of family problems. my classmates decided to tell me repeatedly how much of a "****/*****/hoe" i am. i laughed it off, but i got home and broke down. i called my boyfriend and his friend picked up and told me he was in jail. i couldn't catch my breath. my parents brought my to the conclusion that he was lying to get out of the relationship. i took the xanax we had from the cabinet and decided to OD. sure enough, i didn't go along with it, but decided to keep it in my bag just in case. i went to school the next day and decided that if i was unwanted, i would "take my leave". it started off with a pill at second period...within the next hour, it turned into 7 and i started shaking and falling everytime i'd stand up. i couldn't stop crying. a few classmates tried to calm me down but i completely understand that their concern wasn't genuine, but they just felt sorry for me. that was when i realized, i have no one.
teenfantasy 16-17, F 3 Responses 3 Jun 2, 2012