All I Wanted Was Lovei was always the problem child the kid with the mental issues, the crazy chick who takes meds and sees a therapist or the girl who was admitted twice. i was always her. nobody understood what i was going through they all just exempted me and saw me as the crazy one. i was the depressed girl who cuts 56 times a week the girl who would hear voices the girl who was bi polar and the girl who was lonely scared and confused. people made fun of me for being bi polar. people laughed at me and called me emo, people left my side when i needed them the most and all i needed was love. i was the girl who always called cps when my dad hit me or my bother. and i also was the girl who cps didnt beleive all i needed was someone to listen all i wanted was love. what is love why am i saying it if i dont even know what it means is getting abused love, is getting madefun of love if thats not love then i dont know what it is. i was left alone for what it seems. people tried to help but they didnt understand me. i was this lonely girl in a huge world with so muh pain and no one cared for me. i know what painkillers are they take away the pain in your body and make you feel better. i took alot of those because i wanted to feel better i didnt want to hurt anymore i just wanted to die pain free and feel better. i got dizzy and i felt weak (maybe its working) nope i fell and i woke up in the nurses office on the cot thingy and i was frusturated because the ainkillers didnt work and now i have to live lonely sad life. the next time i attempted suicide i jumped from this deck it was kind high but not massively high i tried to purposly land wrong but it didnt work i just got intense bruses. but hey what can i say all i wanted was love.
apml 16-17, F 3 Responses 1 Sep 5, 2012