Shut Up!

About 2 years ago I spent several hours in a casino, next to a very noisy machine. When I left, I had a ringing sound in my left ear. I thought nothing of it. After any loud event, I often would get that residual echo effect before things went back to normal.

This was different. The ringing is still there. It's louder now than then. It has never stopped since that day. It's really loud when I first wake up in the morning, and I forget all about it during the bustle of the day. When things quieten down at bedtime, I notice it again.

It's not a consistent sound, it "hiccups" and falters, but the pitch rarely changes. Like morse code. In my right ear is a constant low hum that feels like it's in the back of my head. But the left ear ringing is so piercing, it almost drowns out the other sound.

I have never gone to a doctor about this because in all my life there's never anything wrong with me. Whenever I've gone to the doctor, at least for the past 20 years, for any ache or pain, or symptom, there's never anything wrong with me. I got sick of forking out a $45 copay, just to find out there's nothing wrong with me. So now I never go. Let's wait till there's DEFINITELY something wrong is my philosophy. Sounds so dumb, I know.

But back to my auditory buddy - nothing helps, and I mean NOTHING. And I've read there's no cure, so another reason not to bother with the doctor. I also read that it could be a symptom of something more serious, but, as I said before, there's never anything wrong with me. And I figure, if there WAS an underlying serious cause, surely I'd have some sort of other symptoms these past 2 years. So I've just become accustomed to it. It doesn't make me crazy (yet), but it's been especially "squeely" and loud all day today and i'm hoping it's just due to stress and fatigue.

I thought I'd just vent my frustration here. Maybe someone has advice I've not already heard? Feel free to share!
SKeshvari SKeshvari
46-50, F
Jan 13, 2013