What If's

Here I am, sitting alone wondering what might have happened if I fought for the girl that I loved against my best friend who is also in love with this girl.

It's been 8 months since I last saw the girl whom I've left my heart with. I could said that I have moved on and that I am healed, but somewhere at the back of mind I still have this "What If's" of mine. What If I have chosen this girl over my best friend? What if I had fought for this love and never let it slip away? Would I be happy now, contented? Would I still be friends with my best friend whom I treated like my own brother? I know It sounds so selfish, but if I could only turn back time, I would have chosen the girl over my best friend. I would have been happier than I was before if I did not make the wrong decision of letting her go for the sake of my best friend's heart not being torn apart by me and this girl. I know it would hurt him like hell if I go against him so I've made the decision to let go of the girl that I love for him and I had both lost them. We're like strangers now, we don't talk, hang out and text each other and it saddens me.

I've made the wrong decision again for the second time around just because I don't want to hurt someone's feeling so I ended up hurting myself, I'm such a fool and I guess never learned my lessons and maybe one day I would learn them.
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Dec 5, 2012