I Have Trich

It's not something I want to have. I didn't even know it was a condition until two nights ago. Seriously. I'll admit it's not as bad as other peoples. I have had bald patches, on the top of my head and behind the ear. I've got lots of baby hairs. I don't want it. Not in anyway.
I have always played with my hair, its something that I've taken from my mum, but during year 6 which was a difficult time in my life, I started pulling. The pulling got worse and worse, and I had long hair at the time. At one point it looked like I had a mullet, because I had baby hairs on the top of the head. I was stressed.
Year seven I stopped, and I was happy.
Year nine it came back again, and I stupidly thought 'It happens the year before I join another school, it'll go away' I pulled out specific hairs, if the texture felt different or if the colour was blonde (I had highlights in)  I had major stress problems.
I've just finished my GCSE's, and it hasn't stopped, I can't stop it. I don't even know I'm doing it, I think I'm just playing with my hair.
I don't know what to do, or anything, and I've tried explaining it to my friends, but they don't seem to understand. I don't know how to talk to my parents about it because they have enough problems to last a lifetime and I feel that this could add to it. They have known I've been doing it in the past, but I don't think they know it is a disorder.
Thing is, I didn't even know it was a condition, I always thought it was just a stupid habit.
abzizkul abzizkul
13-15
Jul 9, 2010