Hair Extensions Arent Gonna Cover This For Much Longer... Helppppp Meee :/

Aww thank you so much for taking the time to share all that with me :D







Ahhh your storyy does sound like mine !! Its sooooooooo frustrating!! I was in a "treatment center" when i was 15-16 (which did NOT help at all hah) for "running away" and when i was there they put me on ALLLLLLLLL kinds of meds, but i eventually completely STOPPED and all my hair grew back !!!!! But since i was on 9 - 10 different meds and they all kinda went together with eachother i guess, i have no idea what helped me stop, and it all ended up making me gain almost 60 lb.. i went in as a size two, tiny tiny, and came out a size 16. SOOOO i know this sounds horrible but honestlyy i have just recently lost 30 lb because im back on adderall, and its like the best feeling ever. I know the adderall multiplies my hair pulling by like A MILLION, but im STUCK on this!!! when i dont take it im unbelievably exhausted and tired, and 100% DEMOTIVATED.. and i work at waffle house soooo i can NOT be like that there lol. I dont know! :/ im gonna look into that n-acetylcysteine stufff and hopefully i can find it here ?? I dont know, but im stuck in a veryyyy difficult decision :/ i justt dont know what to do ! I try sooooooooo hard to tell myself over and over and over that IM IN CONTROL OF WHAT I DO !! and i look in the mirror and i tell myself "YOURE GONNA LOSE YOUR HAIR! Like dont youu get that ?! " and i feel CRAAAAAAAAAZYYYY !!!







Like you said aboutbeing around your friends, they help you to stop, its kind of the same for me but its my boyfriend, he alllllways stops me everytime i even TOUCH my hair.! Im glad but he gets mad even when im just trying to make sure my damn bald spot isnt showing lol :/ he saw it a few MONTHS ago and it was sooo hard for me to even show him for one SECOND! but now its like 7 times worse than it was then and he doesnt understand !!! and tonight, a few hours ago actually, i noticed that my extensions - the ONE thing im comforted by, that i RELY on are actually CAUSING additional bald spots all around my hair, because now i leave them in for days ( theyre the clip ons ) which i guess wore a bunch of new spots on the top whhere i dont EVEN PULL!!! ugh and ANOTHER thing is, i hardly ever eat anything. and when i do its NOT healthy because im lazy honestly so i just eat whatever is quick. SOOO due to lack of vitamins ( im guessing ?! Malnutrition ?? ) my hair is THINNING quick quick quick ! i just dont know what to do anymore, i took out my extensions earlier, realized how bad it has gotten and i sat in my floor and criedd for like EVVVERRR , this happens every 2 - 3 days. Like i CANT continue to do this, i cant deal with this!!!! my hair is SOOOOOOOO important to me!!! I used to have BEAUTIFUL hair until i was about 14 ( when i started dying it and stuff lol ) and growing up i used to get compliments about how THICK it was and healthy and shiny ahhhh and now, its like WTF that ***** aint got no hair lol. Ugh idk i just wish i could literally meet someone else who does it, NOBODY understands this unless they are dealing with it too. Its just NOT something a normal person could ever wrap their mind around, they can not understand it.







about 2 years after i first started this, i remembered specifically, out of nowhere, when i was about 10 or 11, and my mom was watching a show on TLC or DISCOVERY HEALTH or something like that, and it was literally about a girl with trichotillomania. And she was crying on her interview, she was so so so frustrated and hers was REALLY bad, she had to wear scarves and stuff.. and i remember saying something along the lines of " That is sooo stupid, mom! If i had that I could control it. Its NOT that hard, because you are in control of what you do. This is dummmbbb" and stuff like that... Honestly since i can remember as a little kid, ive always had that mentality! Like, "I can control what I do!" We used to go camping, and the river we went to had STRONG currents, and my dad would always warn me not to go because theyd take me under and i couldnt fight them and all that. But even with that, (i was a VERY ignorant litle girl hahaha) in my mind I controlled that, too... because If i stand there, Im stronger than the river ? Its so hard to explain! sorryyy im rambling, but the point is, Ive always had the mindset of "I control ME!" that was a big thing for me growing up. I think that has something to do with why this happened to me... And my mom and dads side of my whole family has a lott of psychological things here and there lol.











sorry this is long! but thank you for your time :)

Hello! :-)



The problem you described is completely same as mine, with all of the details and also the intensity of my desperation! :D :-((( Have you tried to speak with your doctor? I´ve done this, but she seemed she didn´t want to help me at all..(seemed she thought it´s really funny, but i think it´s really serious illness! :-(, cause it becomes faster and faster and i can´t control it at all anymore!) - the time i spend by pulling out my hair is unbelievable -it destroys my life, i have no time for really important (!) things.. I´ve read a lot about it till now (I´m 21 and my first attack was at the age 18, then disappeared and now it´s about 1 year i pull my hair out almost without breaks)-i´m able to stop it for example for one or two weeks by my will, but then it´s still worse -when i stop my control and it comes back... :-( ...and i´ve read that the treatment by antidepressives and psychotherapy brings just a little success among small group of people, but now there are some new studies about a substance called "n-acetylcysteine", which does a real progress in this illness-treatment and brings very positive results, so I´m decided to try it (unfortunatelly it´s not sold in the Czech Republic at all, so it will be a little more complicated but i´ve found it on some foreign webpages :-)) ...Some other advice (what helps me, but may not 100% help you too): to be often with your friends (i do it only at home, not when my friends are around), to go to bed when you´re really sleepy- it becomes worst when i´am tired and in general in the evenings..) - when i´m at home in the evening i learned to go sleep earlier and earlier to get up, it helps); many people claims it´s useful to wear gloves and hat at home (don´t know, i´ve no experience with this), and maybe (i´m not sure if it´s not just my feeling :D) helps milk (i drink it in the afternoons) and simply to live more healthy (sport!!, and less fatty food and sugar and more fruits and vegetable-after one week of this i usually feel like completly another person and i´m in better mood, which is in my opinion somehow connected with this illness - it doesn´t treat it, but it´s obviously better

...it´s all related with our inhibited stress, that´s sure, although i feel happy and not depressed, it is simply somewhere deep in us...) I hope it will help somehow, wish you good luck! *** :-))) (and sorry for my terrible english :D ;-))

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