Tearing Apart

Hi, I've had trichotillomania since I was 3 years old. I didn't know then what was happening to me. All i knew, was that i needed to pull my eyebrows and eyelashes out. After a few months/years, I'd finally met my goal of ripping them all out. I felt better after tearing them out, but worse at what I had looked like. After that, it went away. Then, just last year, the mental illness came back with vengence. Now, i rip away at the hairs on my head, but it's now trich that is ripping me apart...I'm scared. I'm confused. I'm lost in my own world. I can't focus in school because a building tension is growing within my mind, telling me to pull my hair until i do. Until i do, my head throbs, but when i do...it goes away with a feeling of accomplishment, but also with a feeling of shame. I'm going to my first talking to with a therapist. Please wish me luck and if you share my story, please friend me. Thanks for listening.
littletalks littletalks
18-21, F
Nov 27, 2012