It Feels Good, But It's Hurting Me.

Hi. I was diagnosed with trichotillomania when I was ten. I started in fourth grade. Now I'm fourteen & it has progressively gotten worse. I always have to dye my hair, switch my part or pretend I'm normal. But I'm not. I don't feel right & I can't stop. I've had numerous doctors. They do nothing. I've been on medicine. That didn't help, in fct I gained forty pounds. I'm an all A's top of the class student & I love sports. But those things don't stress me out. It's my home life. It's my mom. I love my mo with all my heart, but she makes me feel like everything that goes on is my fault. & I can't do it anymore. I've always been that good child. I have NO friends whatsoever because I'm embarrassed to show people the real me. People think I'm hiding stuff from them and therefore do not want to be my friend. I have no where to go. I always feel like oh, this must be rock bottom. But it never is. It gets worse. I tried cutting, but I felt nothing, so I stopped. I don't have anyone to talk to. BUT, if you need me, inbox me. I will be here for you, because I know what it's like to be trampled.
differentisbetter differentisbetter
13-15, F
Dec 1, 2012