Long Time GoneUm, Hi. well i started pulling during 6th grade. its weird because i can actually remember the exact moment that i did it for the first time. for me, it wasn't a compulsive thing, i just had an issue about being perfect i guess. anyway, i'm starting college in the fall, i'm finely off all my meds! but this past weak it just got worse. it looks terrible and i just feel ill because of the guilt of it. i no longer do it for grooming, and lately it has just been sort of like a habit. you know you do it when your bored or something, but Trich isn't that simple. its and addiction, i would even have withdrawals. my eyes would twitch and i would get worm feelings all over my head, and when i sept i would have dreams where i would pull and when i would wake up, i wouldn't know if it was a dream or not. i went to a hospital up in Wisconsin for three months, two in patent (don't ever do that it is horrible and doesn't work!) and one in out patent which was better. i came home pull free. but after i started school again, i started pulling again. i've been pretty good with it lately, it doesn't run my life or claim a part of who i am, but it gets in the way, you know, when your bathroom has hair on the floor, and you get bald spots and have to where head bands or bandannas. i've never met or ever talked to anyone who has had this for as long as i have, they all ether started when adults, or were kids and already over it, two years max. i know i'm not just a freak of nature, and it is also really surprising that almost everybody out there at least knows someone who pulls, yet so little is known about it and there are so few treatment centers. whats up with that?
mysound 16-18, F 13 Responses 2 Jun 30, 2007