Where to begin. Im a female in my young 20's, I have my first child on the way, and I am ready for change. I have had Trichotillomania since I was three. However, it began differently then most cases, I would lie in bed at night and pluck the hairs from my teddy bears, the colored ones first, like around the feet and hands, then on to the next color...I did that untill my parents took away my stuffed animals. As far as I know, I stopped. But not for long, like most of you I clearly rember the next time I did it, I was in 5th grade math class, stressesd and not getting the lesson, I started rubbing and plucking my eyebrow hair with my pen, and thus it bagan. It only took a few weeks to completly pluck my eyebrows to nothing but stubs. It wasnt untill recently I relized the teddy bear and the eyebrows were connected. I just wish I could understand why...was it trauma? Genetics? A psycholigical disorder...and still almost 15 years later, no answers.
But that aside, Im ready to fight it. Im reading a great book "The hair pulling problem" I hope it will help, since there are virtually no local doctors who even know what I have. Ive been to psychologists, and been down the medication route. To no avail, most likley because I wasnt being properly treated. I guess its easier to say you have anxiety and depression issues, because there more common and easily treated...even though its likely I do have these issues in atleast a mild form, the pulling never stopped.
Its like my hands have a mind of there own. If I try to stop, my fingers and eyebrows start to itch, tingle or burn and my mind can foucs on NOTHING untill I finally just give in. Its a horrible helpless feeling. I cover up the missing spots with eyebrow pencil, but I still see it everytime I look in the mirrior. It was much harder as a child, in school, it was worse, harder to cover, and I couldnt learn to accept or understand why I would do this to myself. Older now, I can share my problems with close friends and my loving husband, who all support, even if they dont really understand. Afterall it is such a strange habbit.
I guess Im just hear to see if others feel and behave the same way I do. Like I mentiond esrlier I am currently pregnant, and would like to finally call it quits with my disorder. I know I'll fight it for the rest of my life, but now more then ever I'm motivated to change. Id love any comments or tips from fellow sufferers. Thanks for listening!