I took something 3 nights ago, blacked out then woke up the next morning seeing a pile of vomit next to me. I could have choked to death that night. May Allah forgive all my actions.

I did it because every waking minute of that day I was having suicidal thoughts without me even thinking, it was just there and that night I have had enough so took something and said to myself this would either kill me or make me pass out. Then I blacked out not remembering anything after that.

Yesterday I went to see a doctor and she gave me new medications and finally saw a counsellor after they cancelled my counselling appointments 3 times, it took a month for them to see me.

Today I feel a lot better. No more suicidal thoughts and my depression is under control.

All praises to the Lord almighty for not forsaking me.
citysquare citysquare
26-30, M
1 Response Mar 12, 2016

what lord?

there is only 1 lord...