I Have Trouble Moving On... When I Have A Reason Not To.

Throughout my over 2 year relationship with my boyfriend, I've always been the good one. I'm the type of person who holds their head up high, almost glorifying themselves, seeing myself higher than anyone else. My boyfriend, on the other hand, is always looking for acceptance and will do anything to get it. The way that I see it is, if you need someone else to tell you what your morals are- then you might as well not have any at all. I have made the individual decision to live a completely straight-edge life (no drugs, tobacco, alchohol, meat, non-monogomous sex) and I look very highly on this moral. My boyfriend, so he tells me, is in support and thinks that drugs are as bad as i think they are. But the SECOND I leave to go on a vacation or do anyting, he goes behind my back. He goes drinking with his friends in order to gain their acceptance because I'm not there to give it to him.
Not only that, but he lies about it to. I can't move on because I cant trust him to tell me everything that happened. It's like; you find out something horrible happened to you, and then two seconds later you find out that its worse than you thought, and then two seconds after that you find out that its even WORSE then what you thought then. This goes on and on until I give up, and just drop everything and go back to my normal life. I have trouble moving on because..
.my boyfriend can't be trusted.
.I've been lied to for a long time.
.only the strong know their morals.
.seasons change, but people don't.

amyslife amyslife
18-21, F
2 Responses Dec 20, 2010

He does, he's just too stupid to respect me. I don't know what he's thinking, and hes probably not thinking at all is what Im guessing.

I hate when bad news gets worse. I can relate to that.<br />
Maybe you need someone who has similar morals as you do. He doesn't seem to want a real relationship with you when he lies to you all the time.