I Am A Baby

I don't know what it's like to be strong.  Sure, I can lift a little, but that's not the type of strong I mean.  I mean- brave, outgoing, and one who can stand up for them self.  I may be self-sufficient, but in no way can I stand up for myself.  Sure, I may be able to push through crowds of idiotic teenagers, but I can't tell someone off.  Everyone does it, but I can't seem to do it.  I can give someone a nasty look, but what is that going to do?  When someone says something I don't like, I just grimace at them and think twice about them.  Teenage boys are so rowdy and ignorant that it isn't even funny.  They get in my way and **** me off all the time.  They have to stop being sociable and silly when they should be learning.  I just need to yell at them, because they are affecting my learning environment.  I cannot concentrate in class.  I wish I had the courage to punch them in the face, tell them off, scream at them, and kick them in the balls.  I absolutely hate those obnoxious *** holes.  I just have to tell them how I feel, not that it will even get to their huge egos.  Maybe they will stop, or maybe they will start bullying me like they bully all the other girls.  I am just a little scared, naive puppy.

BBUDS BBUDS
18-21, F
3 Responses Feb 10, 2010

Your very lucky to have the above mentioned comments, They say it all.<br />
Well done.

These are my thoughts:<br />
Speaking up for yourself is very important. I also have struggled with this in my whole life so I know exactly how painful it can become to be bottled up inside when you just can't work up the nerve to say what you need to say.<br />
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I also think that it is important to find the right words to speak up wisely and well. To communicate in a way that helps others to see things from a different perspective and not lose respect for you or maybe even them selves. <br />
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When I was in your age range I had no words at all to express myself half as well as I would have liked to, and I became increasingly frustrated. Frustrated with other people for being so dull and frustrated with my self for not being able to communicate in a way that would have helped both me and them. <br />
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I got a lot of perspective from reading different books that helped me find more clarity about how people are and why, and that helped to find the right words. Now I can speak up for myself when I am frustrated with someone else's behavior in an intelligent and straight forward manner which gets people to think and it has done wonders for how I feel about myself and others.<br />
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It is my opinion that when we communicate respectfully and with intelligence, it shows we respect our own self first and foremost which maybe can rub off on others. And so I encourage you to find the right words to speak to communicate what you feel and think which will cause others to stop and think, and even if they don't, you have not then lost any esteem speaking up by losing your temper and possibly saying something nasty. Don't bottle up negative emotions for other people, it is just toxic. But don't lose it either. Speaking up for your self when you need to increases your chances of not blowing up about it from the tension inside. I hope that helps some.

I can say u are a strong person and here is why I think so:<br />
1. U are ur own person<br />
2. u probably have been through some things that u have survied because it hasen't broken ur soul ( when something or someone cannot break ur soul or spirit u becom a much stronger person, inside and out)<br />
3. When I have needed support or someone too lean on or listen to me ramble about nothing u've always been there<br />
4. U are strong enough to share ur thoughts and personal moments here<br />
5. Ur a great person<br />
6. U are very outgoing<br />
7. U've got a lot of talents that no one knows about <br />
8. U live life too the fullest<br />
9. U love helping people<br />
10. U are always urself<br />
There is ten reasons that show u are a strong indivudial and an outgoing person, so give urself a hug u deserve it so much, and I am proud of u!!!!!!!!!!!