Even If I Say I Trust You, I Really Don't

Trust is hard for me, after being in relationships where people believe that trust should just be given when they have done nothing to earn it, i just dont trust anyone. It started in childhood and continues as an adult.  I try to give people the benefit of the doubt but it seems that there is just no way that I can fully trust someone. Maybe because I dont trust myself enough to make the best choices, its hard for me to trust others to be trustworthy.
bannd bannd
36-40, F
May 6, 2012