I Don't Know How To Trust Anyone

I've been a compulsive liar since I was little. I lie about everything - who I'm with, where I am, what I'm doing, what book I'm reading... even when it's not necessary. I've been doing this since elementary school, and I'm beginning to realize that this is the reason why I've never truly believed anyone regarding anything at all.

I know how easy it is to fib and create an illusion of a circumstance that is entirely untrue, and it's making me more and more emotionless when it comes to interacting with people, because I always think that they have no good reason to tell me the truth at all, since I myself don't need a reason or objective to lie.

I can't stop. I want to, but I have way too many sides to keep up with - the "online" side, the "girlfriend" side, the "friends" side, the "daughter" side, the "sister" side, the "working" side... every group knows a different part of it and it's driving me crazy not because I cannot remember my lies, but because I'm starting to wonder if I'm ever gonna be good enough for someone to know me without me having to tell them anything that is untrue.
An Ep User An EP User
Jan 20, 2013