I'm Working On Both....

I've had a ****** up past that has led to my extreme trust issues.
My self esteem is getting better, and I'm working like hell on it.

I miss loving myself, cause there were moments in time that I did in fact love myself. I cared. I've always been obese though, so caring was never there 100 percent. Didin't help that my mom was weird about food. Never bought healthy stuff. Just junk and we'd make dinners, but veggies were always out of the question. She may as well have force fed me growing up because I felt like I didn't have much choice, damned if I do, damned if I don't kind of thing.

But I know now....to probably half of the male friends on here that I have view me as a ****, and blah blah blah. Realized that today after someone didn't deny thinking it of me, he views all women that way i suppose. Not a good thing, but people are ****** up, including myself.

But I refuse to let all this bull **** bring me down.
I've came a long way since just last year and I want to continue this progress despite how hard it is at times.
No giving up. It's not allowed.
Greeneyedandcurious Greeneyedandcurious
26-30, F
2 Responses Oct 27, 2012

You're a strong woman. Don't give up!

You are loved chica! Keep looking forward to better things! Your REAL friends are behind you 100%! Just remember, even when it gets tough, that you are worth it!!!

:-) Thank you and I love you!!!!! You're awesome dear.