I have really bad trusting issues i guess. I didn't realize i did until a really good friend wanted to get to know even more about me and I said I had nothing to share. Now he thinks that I don't trust him. I can't think of where this untrusting feelings came from. Ive been reading some stuff on the internet and it talked about past relationships and just in general being let down a lot can cause this.
Well, I was in a relationship that lasted about 8 months and when it ended he never told me why. Just that there was too much goin on in his life. I feel like I'm going to cry just typing about it. I fell in love with him and we were planning our lives together. And just out of nowhere he told me we were breaking up. It left me feeling that all he wanted from me was sex and nothing more. And all I can think about is that he is laughing at me forr being stupid and believing the stuff he told me.
My family isnt the beast family to live in if you want to feel good about yourself. There are constant putdowns anytime someone is in a bad mood. My mother would call me and my sister ***** etc. but this stuff only happens when shes in a bad mood. She also tell my brothers that they are retards too and I try so hard to build their self esteem so they don't end up emotionally guarded like me. Its no fun not being able to tell your boyfriend how you really feel about him and its not easy when your friends realize that you don't trust them with any information.
I think I just talked my way out of my problem. maybe.
Do I need therapy or do I just need to share this information with someone?