Always Have

I don't really know why I find it so hard to trust people.. I just do. Even if the people I'm closest with like my best friends.. I say that I trust them, but I doubt them quite a bit actually. I do it without realizing a lot and I feel so guilty for think like that. I know that I should trust them but I can't help but think sometimes that they don't really care about me and that they're going to leave...  and it's the same with everyone really. I just keep saying to myself that no one loves me and they're all going to abandon me one day. I don't know how I can change this. I don't want to regret trusting people but I want to learn trust some people more.

BrokenAngelWishes BrokenAngelWishes
18-21, F
1 Response Feb 27, 2010

I know what u mean, i've had a few bad experiences trusting ppl but nothin serious so have no reason not to now. It's not that i don't trust others to keep secrets or anything like that, i don't trust them not to judge me. You see i'm a very unjudgemental person: i dnt mind listenin 2 ppl's problems, try to give advice(although i'm not so good at this), am very forgiving, understand sum1 bein mean in a bad mood nd quick 2 4get about it if it wasn't personal, open minded and i don't hold grudges (usually). Yet 4 sum reason i can't trust ppl to be the same way and am sure they will judge me/get sick of me. I know sum ppl are judgemental but these ppl are my FRIENDS, i know they're good ppl so i don't know why i think they'll be this way with me. It's definatley a problem with me not them and hopefully we will both get to the bottom of this and learn 2 trust :-D