My Life

Hi everyone , my name is Tanisha Im 16 and i got type one diabetes when i was 6. When i was first diagnosed i was getting really sick every morning , peeing the bed alot, drinking a ton of water, was always hot.. My mom took me to the doctors 3 times then took me to childrens hospital where they had diagnosed my with type 1 diabetes. 2 years later my younger sister who is now 14 got it... She handles it alot better then i do..When im with my friends i pretend like it doesnt excist like im a normal person I dont check or take insulin and its not that im embarrased its that I dont wantit to be real this disease that im stuck with for the rest of my life.. Im what my doctors call a "fragile" diabetic. Nothing works . My A1c has never been below a 9 and the highest its been was in the 13 range.. And im scared.. all the things everyone tells me about how i can loose this or that or i could go blind or could even die. Im Terrified.. And i feel alone and no one under stands not even my sister because she has only been in DKA one time when she was first diagnosed and she only had to stay over night.. When i was first diagnosed i was in there for two weeks and then went in because i was getting sick every other day after that sometime i would have to stay for weeks at a time. And to this day i still go into DKA every once in a while.. one time my brain even started to swell..
I just wanna be normal, I want to marry my boyfriend of almost a year when i reach 22 i wanna continue my volleyball and dance career in college and have a little baby and become a diabetic pediatrician but im scared i wont make it that long..
Thanks for reading..
<3 Tanisha <3