I'm Worried.

My name is Evangeline and i've had Ulcerative Colitis my whole life. When i was little i was very picky with my food and wouldn't eat much. I used to get morning sickness and really bad stomach pains all the time. they never seemed to stop. I got diarrhea and was always embarassed to go to the toilet. I used to get rashes everywhere and had really dry lips and hands. I've always been small for my age, so small in fact that all the doctors placed me under the too small line on this graph thing. I never thought much of my condition but my parents started getting worried and taking me to lots of different doctors. It wasn't until i was 11 that i went to the GP for some rash cream when she suggested i go see her 'friend' who treated people with the same symptoms as me. The doctor diagnosed me with ulcerative Colitis a year later. I always accepted it as part of my life and nothing to worry about until i decided to do an english project on it. I was researching random stuff when i came across a page that said there was no cure. Stupid little me thought that the medication i was taking cured it. Then i found loads of websites that said it effected pregnancy. i never thought about it but that's when i started getting worried. My mum used to say that if i didn't take my medication then it would get so bad i would have to be hospitalised. i thought she was just saying it to scare me. I started freaking out about it but convinced ,myself i was overeacting and my case wasn't that bad. The my dad was diagnosed with cancer and he died three years later. After that my ulcerative colitis started flaring up and i had to go on a course of steroids for a bit. I'm now nearly 16 and getting really worried about my health. If anyone's got any advice i would be extremely grateful. Thank-you.