My Dream Is My All..without It..i Don't Even Wanna Live Anymore...i Don't Care What Happens Anymore...

I posted this as a thread from a website:
Hello everyone....I...would like to just share you guys my story. I happened to really enjoy my life here in this world, I have encountered many interesting things. Well.......I used to usually have some light on my face and always seem to enjoy the things I indulge myself into, it's really been a pleasure to be...well "decently happy". Well...everything changed when I tried to think about my purpose in life. I played a video game called Persona 4 Golden, I really enjoyed it's many interesting features, it's like a game of life, you forge bonds with friends, eat with them, laugh with them, and even try to solve a case which is supposed to be a matter for the police. The story was awesome, people there are really heart-touching, they are so awesome that I wished for them to be real. Well....sigh....here comes the part I've been wanting to share to you.....I..I really dream about them being real, they are really kind and awesome people, but whenever I think of that, like meeting them in person though they are just some figures of anime, it really bugs me a lot..my goal is to just meet them, become friends with them because I love their characteristics. It hurts me most (and I mean literally most) that they are just made-up people. Tch...yeah sure, they are just "drawings", they are just "anime"....urrghhh....these words are like stones in my heart...I prayed to God millions of times, hoping that they would be real. I know it sounds hilariously childish but it's really the only thing I want in this world....it's my only purpose....I don't even want an occupation in the future, just them......dammit....I'm just 15 and I can't believe that I even thought of committing suicide a few times, it's been quite a while...I've never been happy anymore, perhaps I never will be again...I can't even remember the last time I smiled....day and night...I keep on sobbing silently, at night, I cry with my head under my pillow, it's really all that I dream of, I don't care about anything anymore...just them.....I even neglected my health, not eating anymore sometimes....I literally keep thinking of them every second, every minute.....hardly even grasping a dream, knowing that it would be impossible to reach....do you know how that feels....? I don't even care about myself or my studies anymore....because I know, you know, that studying isn't the solution to that dream..just the heart...I cry as I type all these.....hah.....who would've thought that someone could be so desperate on a dream like this.....I don't know why I'm even doing this....maybe I just need someone to know my pain....I guess I'll die like this...I even passed out of total depression...it's really my only desire....I just don't know what to do....everything I do result in sadness.....geez guys I'm really desperate......................................... ..............................................Than ks for listening to my story...and will continue being sad......'till death.....I've been keeping this for a long time......sigh......Is this it...? Is this the way it all ends for me? I don’t care anymore what I become when I grow up...my goal is just preposterous....I’m the only one who clings on this....Thanks guys.....maybe I have no hope anymore....I’ll just slowly fade away......
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1 Response Jan 23, 2013

If you think you want these characters in your dream, it might come true one day. Else, you could.start meeting people where you would be able to handpick the bunch of people who have the similar attitudes or personalities. This would satisfy your equation in every manner. Better start on meeting people for Christ sake. I sure you will find them very soon.