Will It Ever Go Away?
I had "dizzy" spells for most of my adult life....I didn't really realise just how much they were affecting me, when you have something frequently you kind of think that its normal to feel such a way.I just felt pathetic...not having the confidence to learn to drive for instance because I cant judge the speed of traffic very well.
In recent years this has become true vertigo so bad I am spinning sometimes but usually it feels like I'm walking on mattresses ..or on board a ferry boat. Sometimes I fall over with it its so bad. Its so frustrating not being able to go out shopping or do normal stuff like going for a drink with friends...Ive had this episode for about 6 weeks now...it can go on for months.Even housework becomes difficult when head movements leave you feeling swimmy. Its seems to be some wierd form of migraine with me, but also permanent damage to the balance mechanism, of unknown origin.
I hate it.
Its wasting my life.
Update June 17th 2008
My demon is back, I haven't really been out because of it for weeks now. It's certainly messing up my plans of becoming stronger and more independent. I'm trying not to get depressed but right now I can't stop crying....I hope I can dredge up some inner strength from somewhere.
24th Nov 2008
Its now cost me my marriage......though apparently I'm just lazy and using it as an excuse.