Feel Helpless And Depressed
Hi, Ive had vertigo for about 5 months going on 6 months now. About 1 out of 7 days I feel almost normal. Ive not been working all this time either. To add to all my symptoms I am constantly depressed as I cant find work and my debts are adding up big time. The stress adds to my condition I must admit. Its progressively getting worse and Ive been to the doctor. Not being on medical aid I have to be patient with the goverment hospitals. Awaiting to go for tests. 70% of the day I feel like doing absolutely nothing, doing things seem and usually are difficult as balance is mostly non existant and to add to that I feel like throwing up all the time. My world spins most of my time and I cant concentrate or focus or think straight. Making a simple decision is even difficult and when I think or get up or move a get back ache and head ache. I'm a firm believer in God and re borne Christian and my happy life even seems dull and it bothers me beyond belief. I pray, I sleep most of the time and feel worthless. I know I'm not but I feel that way. I dont know how to express what I feel and am mostly angry and my temper has become very short... I need some advice and desperate help.... I know for sure I dont have inner ear problems and having lost family members due to cancer the last few years It terrifies me that I may even have other issues. Prob not but my mental state has brought this to my attention and it bothers me. I just want to feel like a normal person again.