Getting Up Early

For months now I've been waking up between 4 and 7am. Since I don't need to be up at any of these times, at first, I was getting up to the use the bathroom and going back to bed.
This isn't so abnormal. I remember years ago, I use to get up at 3 every single morning, go to the bathroom and back to bed and back to sleep. I don't know why or how that routine every changed.
Now when I wake early, I must get up. If not I have bad dreams.
Everyone knows that bad dreams can leave a person feeling rotten and that feeling can stay in the body and mind for a long time during the day. In fact, they can stay always and never leave.
I have some of those dreams in my head right now and I wish I could forget them and the horrible fear that went with them.
I'm not sure if this is going to last, but I'm up.... When I wake up in the mornings, I'm staying up. I don't care if it's 4am. I'd rather deal with trying to make myself stay up and be tired, then to curl back up in my lovely, warm bed, under all those great covers....but have bad dreams.
Every time I go back to bed now, it's the same thing and I can't handle it.
Last night, Friday night, we all got watching a program on tv and went to bed about 1am. I woke up at 7am this morning, and even though it's a Saturday and I can crawl back into bed, I'm not going to. I can't face the fear of having a bad dream.
I just hope that whatever is going on stops, just like the 3am bathroom routine stopped, maybe this will pass too.
MsBlueDreamer MsBlueDreamer
51-55, F
Dec 1, 2012