A Bad Feeling of Wanting To...

Yes I have violent thoughts, so bad that I actually scare myself. Some that picture me falling off of buildings, stabbing myself... blahblah. And sometimes I usually do try to hurt myself. I punch myself and stuff. Sometimes I go insane and start to fall for no reason, but I love the feeling of pain.

This one point in my life, I wanted to come to school with a gun, shoot anyone in my way. Because I am just sick of it. Sick of people. That is the root to my problem... PEOPLE. The reason why I have these thoughts. I wish I could act out my thoughts, I really do. Wish I could do them, if my back didn't hurt so much.

cementerygates cementerygates
18-21, F
3 Responses Mar 8, 2008

I have violent thoughts to.Some that make me want to rip my enemies throats out just like a vampire but also to shut off my emotions which Ive done before but not the ripping throats out part.

I am getting a phyciatrist in a month but i feel that I can not waite that long.

you need to seek help as those thoughts are very bad. get help before you hurt youself worse or hurt someone else real bad.