Wasted Life

Hey I wish I only wasted 10 years of my life. I wasted 20. I came from dysfunctional family and mother was mentally ill. Experienced multiple molestations as a child and several rapes as a teen ager. I was so messed up that all I wanted was for someone to love and protect me. I met someone at 18 and turns out he was an abuser also but had me so afraid of him I was stuck for 20 years. Took me quite a while to realize he was just a bully. I got my life back. Walked out with 3 kids on a hope and a prayer, but we made it. Only thing is, I cannot get my life back that was wasted. I have no education. I missed out on so many experiences in youth. I do not think I will ever be fully normal because the scars run too deep and I missed out on so many important developemental stages in life. I do the best I can with what I have to work with. It is a daily thing. A daily choice to press on. You cant change the past but you can change your future!

coldcut coldcut
41-45, F
Feb 21, 2010