Night After Night

I have wierd dreams, and they start fading as soon as I wake. Sometimes I think about putting a tape recorder beside my bed so as soon as I wake up, which I do about 5-7 times a night, sometimes not sleeping more than 15 minutes at a time, I can record the thoughts as they fleet away. But the truth is, I would rather not know.

When I was young, I had dreams that came true, or premonitions if you will. The worst was when I dreamed of my own father's death. For a long time I felt responsible for his dying, and I had no one to share these concerns with... so I learned early on to keep these things inside. Now that I am old, and I have worked though all the feelings around these things, I have a deeper relationship with God and I understand that somethings are just meant to happen. I believe that when I was a child, I offered up my life to God and begged to be his servant, and that every now and then he takes me up on it. This story goes in a different group, so I won't dwell on it here, except to say that God communicates with us in many ways, and one of those is through dreams. So, even if I am not able to consciously remember my dreams, the information that I needed is still successfully passed on.

anyway... Even if I could remember the details, I doubt I would share them. Some of them are deeply personal, many of them are cryptic, comical and scary... but I don't need answers to them, just having them is enough.
lms2 lms2
May 17, 2012