When I Was Pregnant..

Will I was pregnant and before I was beaten by the father so that I would lose the baby. I was so happy when I found out, I began to write to my unborn child, I would write about what I was doing to make its life better than mine ever was, my struggles with getting clean, and how much I already loved it. I explained that I never thought that I could ever love someone that I never met before as much as I love it. It was an amazing feeling, knowing that a life was growing inside of me. What made me even happier was the fact that I was pregnant for someone that I loved and I really thought that he was going to help me, I thought he wanted this child. I found out at 5 weeks, beat me when I was 5 months and 3 weeks along. I tried so hard to protect my stomach, to protect my unborn child from him, but he was stronger more powerful than me, and he won. I was crushed when I found out that I lost my baby because of him. I will never understand why he hated the thought of having a child with me.To this day, I still wonder how my life would be if I did have that child, it would be 4 years old by now. I wonder if I would be happy with it.. After I lost it I wrote to it telling it that I was so sorry that I couldnt protect it from what happened.
imperfectbeauty imperfectbeauty 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 9, 2012

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This is so touching.

so sorry for you

we had a girl inour group beat like that by her father and she almost lost her life also withthat of his child she was crrying

then my second love was beaten by her husband so bad she lostthe child and would never be able to have a child again

and a few years later just beofre we were to be married her ex killed her

This is so sad but same thing happened to me. It is unfortunate but what can i say. There are no words. Your story took me back even made me cry a little. Kharma is a ***** trust me!

I would execute the guy with my bare hands if i ever get to meet him...not good enough, i know...but comes from the heart...