I've Done So Little.

I'm 35 years old, and I feel as though my life should be in a totally different place than it is.

I don't know if it's because I don't have the energy to see anything through, or I get scared if I complete something... but that's how I feel.

I never finished college, and I wasn't far off from completing it.

I've only had one serious relationship, and I was the only one who considered it serious. He was cheating on me probably the entire time we were together. But due to my low self-esteem, I wanted to forgive him to keep him in my life. I know now (that I'm older and I've seen more of the world) that that would've been a terrible idea.

I didn't move out of my mother's house until I was nearly 30 years old. Since then I've done some traveling, but I've watched as other's have gone off to have their own lives and families.

I'd like to know true love, I'd like to know true friendship. I do have my best friend/roommate, and I do everything with her. But I've only really ever had her (not that I'm discounting that relationship in any way), and she means everything to me. Without her, I'd be nowhere, and I mean that truly. It'd be nice to have other friends, other people to exchange ideas with and get to know.

I just want to be able to connect with people.
kanevixen kanevixen
31-35, F
3 Responses Dec 2, 2012

be thankful for your bestfriend,a lot of us have to go through life alone

I feel the same way myself. I want to connect with people, but oftentimes I just don't know how.

Have you tried online dating? It's not as bad as some people say it is.