Choice Or .......?

 I new friend on here wrote me a letter and it said that I seem to be a strong person. Thank you first of all, but I feel that I have no choice to be strong. If I let everything that I have gone through beat me up, then I wouldn't be able to experiance life.

 Believe me it's hard to keep going on lots of times. But, I don't want to be dead, I don't want to have somebody always pampering me and I have my children to keep going on for. I do have days or even weeks that I am all 'wha is me', and I do want somebody to hold me threw those times, but, I don't have those people around me, I kind of do, but, not really. They let me do some of the 'woe is me', but then they don't know what to do and they leave me alone until I go 'hey, straighten up'. So, they support me in ways, just not always the way I want them to.

 I used to have a friend that I would say to him, "tell me to breath", he would, and it helped me a lot because thats what I wanted him to say. The only problem is that I wish he and others could read my mind and do what I want before I told them. Then I would think that they really cared. I know they care, but not the way I wish.

 Choice! Yes, we all have the ability to make choices in our lives, but, sometimes cercumstances dictate our actions. We, do things just to makes things pass easier or faster. We make the best choice for us at that moment. We may find that that choice affected more than we intended, but it still was a choice, and then we have the choice to make another choice. They choices we make are good for us at that moment only and for that person. It may not have been the right choice for somebody else, but then they have a choice to make, do they except that first choice or do something else.

 People have chosen to do things to me that I had no controll over. I do not like it at all, but I can try to take the good from it. I guess things have made me strong, but it's been very trying along the way. I would love to be content someday. To stop fighting and to know that I have people who truely care and love me. I chose to believe that things will work out someday. In the meantime I have no choice but to continue forward.


jrabbit1321 jrabbit1321
46-50, F
3 Responses Mar 22, 2009

Thank you serenityone1 :)

Life is what you make it, what you decide to do and how you decide to do it. If you don't like the outcome of something that is affecting your life, then change it. A wise person once told me, "There is always a result of your choice, for every good there is a consequence..." For instance if you choose to be around bad friends then expect bad things to happen.<br />
Breathe easy, walk wasy, live easy...<br />
I myself, make rules to live by;<br />
**Don't do drugs<br />
**Say something nice to someone everyday<br />
**Don't take things that don't belong to you<br />
**Have a positive outlook on life---not always easy to do especially when if you have alot of stress<br />
like unpaid bills, worrying about someone you love or yourself, or having a bad hair day...<br />
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Last but not least very important!<br />
****Laugh - you will be amazed at how much stress laughter relieves. :)<br />
When I am confronted with so much stress that I can hardly stand it and it starts to make me angry. I tell myself to stop thinking bad thoughts, and think of something funny, or see something funny and laugh. It is then I know that I will be alright!<br />
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You will be fine. Remember, life is what you make it. If you make bad decisions, life can become hard ofr you. If you make good decisions, life can be a very Grand Occassion.<br />
Your friends are trying to help, but it what you decide to do that makes all the difference in the world. If they do not support you then maybe they are not your friend afterall.<br />
And, yet life goes on!!!

very true