It Will Be A Year In A Few Weeks

I have a boyfriend that I don't live with and share a beautiful baby girl. I guess that's where the problem started. About the time I started to show he wasn't comfortable having sex with me anymore. He promised it would get better after she was born. She just turned six months old and still noting. He insists that there is no one else, that he wants to be in a relationship with me. He can't sleep in the same bed with me because he doesn't sleep very good if I'm there. So I have no sex or intimacy at all. I'm not ugly or fat or undesirable, he just can't have sex because he has a daughter now and he can't do it. He has lost all desire to have sex. He tells me it's not me, but it sure as hell feels like it. It hurts and it's embarrassing and a horrible thing to do to someone. I know I can find someone else, but I don't want just anyone. I want him. And I've tried to let go of him but I can't. So I'm stuck and I don't know what to do. I can't live like this forever.
notinMIanymore notinMIanymore
31-35, F
Jul 25, 2010