Not Proud Of It!

It's killing me that I haven't done it yet. I think about it everyday. It consumes me. I know that alot of people are proud of it but I don't see how you could be proud. It kills me that once again I'm not normal. I don't date(never have) but yet like the guys I am trained to hate I lie about it, because when people find out about it they treat you like some sort of freak or they pat you on the head and tell you some story about how they are glad they waited and you'll find someone and blah blah blah blah. And considering the fact that I'm already weird it doesn't help. I don't want to lose it to some random person, but I'd be fine with a friends with benifits kinda thing but just when that started to happen he decides to go back to his married gf. So she gets two guys and I get none. I was soooo close. I was gonna be normal and now I'm worse off than I was before :(

annesocial annesocial
22-25, F
3 Responses Feb 26, 2010

I've never done drugs, or even had a drink. And you know what? I'm not proud of it in the least. The only thing I'm proud of is that I'm following what I believe. What I'm trying to say is, don't listen to what other people tell you should be right. Take it for what it is, and leave the rest.<br />
Everyone, including your parents or friends, has insecurities. Its natural for people to impose their ideas on others to try to make themselves feel important or whatever reason they might have.<br />
By lying about it, your trying to fit in. You seem deathly afraid of being look at as weird, or different just because of something trivial. What are they going to do? Be jealous? Being afraid of what people think about you is a natural reaction. However, empowering yourself to just be yourself might make it a lot easier to find someone new. <br />
As for "Morals", they are different from person to person. To me, the simplest of recreational drugs is horrible. I hate it. But to me, speeding while driving isn't that bad. To someone else, it could be the polar opposite. Don't get caught up on what the other people are saying about whats good and bad. You need to decide whats worth what to you and you only.<br />
Keep your head up, and be yourself. I know you'll find someone awesome in no time. Just keep your ears perked. You never know whose going to hook you up. Talk to friends, look online, whatever you want. Just remember, patience is a virtue. And don't forget to make your intentions known from the start if your an open type of person. Best of luck.

You are a rarety. But that's what makes you special. Why do you think everyone applauds you? It took strength. Shows you have an enormous amount of control. You have made it this far. What's the rush? Find a nice person, date a while, then think about it. I don't know a lot of men who married theirs first, There really is no turning back and it may not matter to you now but it will when your older.

you find the nice guy at college as friends then dating the relationships can wait ,when you lose it there is no turning the clock back you need to lose it for someone you care for,and not a one night stand or the cheating husband. you have morals so be proud.