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You'd Think I'd Never Get Lonely With All My Personalities, But They Just Throw Parties In My Head...keeping Me From Going to Bed!

I just think too much...that's all. I can't sleep because if I'm not thinking about this...I'm thinking about that, and these, that, and those thoughts breed other thoughts and on & on. I have to admit I write my best poetry when I'm semi-conscience...

It is Labor day...I'm supposed to go to my families today...but I can't drive like this....my vision is shot...and my reaction time is poor...

This just started back up the last 3-4 wks.(the whole staying up for days)  I was getting up at 4:20 every morning for work, it was quite a drive....So I was going to bed by at least 12-1 am. I got laid off...for reasons unknown to me or anyone else ...the few theories are that, I reminded the supervisor of an ex-girlfriend, he has a  major power-trip issue, and he didn't like that I didn't talk to him or kiss is butt like all the other lady employees. I'm looking for a second or third shift position now.... I have to get back on some kind of schedule...

It is taking an unbelievable about of energy for me to even type this right now. Every little noise seems extraordinarily loud. My head is just sooo sensitive right now. I do this to myself why? Sometimes, I do stay up for days on end ..on purpose.  I like the feeling I get after 24hrs without sleep...I get pretty goofy. Plus when I write my poetry with no sleep... I slip in & out...I go in-between,left of center,into the unknown.

Now to tell my family I can't make it to they're gathering. Because I've had no sleep, a reason they've heard many times before. Then to bed...to fantasize..I never have good sex dreams though...I have rarely ever even had dreams about sex, but when I did, they were horrifying! I guess I should write about it in the dream section...

mmm k going to sleep now...nighty night well wishers:}

QueenOfHearts QueenOfHearts 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 7, 2009

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I know what you mean! I have a lot of trouble getting to sleep myself most nights. My brain is always running. Right when I'm getting ready to finish one task, something new pops up in my head. One distraction leads to the next and before I know it, the sun is coming up. I've been awake for 30 hours right now. I would like to sleep, my eyes kind of hurt, but at the same time, I have absolutely no desire to. Atleast I have some mountain dew so I'm not totally groggy.