She Wouldn't Understand

I have been on and off with EP over the last 3 years and have always kept it a secret from my spouse. I've been with her for over 35 years and I do love her yet I need more than what she can provide.
The need is for passion, adventure, excitement...as you can imagine after all these years, most of that has come and gone...
The excitement of meeting new people and exploring their minds...learning new points of view...learning about their desires and wants and needs...
To be able to exchange ideas on all levels that are new or just coming at the subject from another angle...
To be sexy and naughty with a stranger...to realize that others have the same passions and desires that you've not been comfortable expressing or if you have were rejected...

She loves me...she does as well as she can...she just doesn't completely fulfill me...not her fault...

She would be hurt if she knew this so she can never know...
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1 Response May 19, 2012

I think many of us here have similar stories... I wish you great success in finding what you are looking for... and in finding the balance that is needed...