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Voices.

I have been hearing voices and seeing people that weren't there from being a child, it got progressively worse in my teenage years though and carried on there after.   They would walk into my house, these "people" uninvited and sit and watch my TV even, and i have had numerous arguments thinking they were intruders, other times i have been talking to various men and women.

I am on medication for it now and have been diagnosed as "Schizophrenic" but the medication doesn't work to well for me, it certainly doesn't stop the voices and crazy episodes i have had, like for instance, drinking cleaning products because i was convinced by the man that it was a soft drink, i have burnt my hand too putting it in the fire, so it has been quite dangerous for me.

I find stress triggers it all more, and i try and keep myself as calm as i can, as much as i can, but alas thats not always feasible in a world of madness.  I spend alot of time alone too though, so i don't think that can always help but i really don't like the company of other people so well either as i am very socially phobic and shy maybe would be a better word. 

Aloneness though doesn't always sadden me, it is comforting 90% of the time, and the other 10% i pine for the company of others.

 

electriclobe electriclobe 26-30, F 3 Responses Oct 17, 2007

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it used to scare me.... oh what am i saying.. it still does! but try talking to them. just dont let people hear you they may think your insane

your not insane though. its not that disorder you said. its just your tuned into a certain station that gets the voices and you cant turn it off. just accept it and when you hear it listen you may learn something

I can relate to a lot of what you have said here.



When I see and hear people in my home I usually think I am being burgled, but thankfully nothing has been taken. But it is a very frightening experience.



I also am one to prefer my own company. Having been with someone in my face for so long as I have, I became desperate to have some time to myself. But I also hate being around people for fear of what they will do to me, or they can hear my thoughts.



But I do wish you luck in your ongoing recovery.

I've never seen an actual person who wasn't there, just heard their voices.