And Now That You're Gone...

...no-one else is ever going to be allowed so close.

Losing someone so permanently changes you. But I was damaged to begin with, I just didn't know it until I had something real to hurt about. I tried and tried and tried, different ways I tried every time to make it work. The problem wasn't them, the problem is me.

And no amount of duct tape will fix me. Nothing will. I've tried so many things, and now, I just want to be cold inside. Passionless. Honestly, I've been working on being passionless for a decent while. It's not easy. But I'm finally getting close.

Maybe when I'm done, I won't have to kill myself to get some relief.
mononoaware mononoaware
26-30, M
Jan 15, 2013