I Dont Know Anymore

Start thinking about what you want in life, what is going to make you happy and feel good about yourself. Think about what you want to accomplish in life short realistic goals and write them down. Then start taking charge and moving to those goals. When you have accomplished one you will feel great, and you deserve to. Start doing things you like to do, what are you good at, what are your strengths. Do things that give you great joy. Be thankful for the little things and always find the humor in things. Laughter is the best cure.

Dear Jason,

You do not say where these feelings originate from. Is it bills or drugs or realtionship issues or have you felt worthless and less than all your life? There are two different sorts of pain. One is orginated very young and stays with you and the other is a reaction to things as they happen.

At my lowest point I felt that there was no reason for me to go on. I had always felt like an outsider and all I was wanted was to be accepted. I kept waiting and hoping that one day I could feel happy and hopeful instead of despondent and sad.

The day I realized that I could only achieve happiness within myself, was a freaky day. The day I realized I was the one choosing to entertain the thoughts of negativity and death was the day that changed my life.

When I began to exchange thoughts of vengance and hate for thoughts of forgiveness and acceptance the strangest thing began to happen to me. The depression began to lift and I started to see that I only had to be happy with myself and that the forgiveness I handed out to the people I held responsible for my pain began to change my attitudes and preconceived notions about what life really was.

There are all kinds of things that keep us stuck, but we are the ones that choose to hold to them instead of letting them go.

Can you try to accept the fact that change happens for a reason? That there is some greater power at work arranging things? Can you learn to take what is offered from each lesson but not hold on to the pain? When emotions take over they are either attacking what is or defending against percieved attack. Instead of reacting, listen and observe the situation. We are all so busy trying to be heard that we jump into defend mode without questioning our guilt. Our brains are condtioned to automatically assume we are guilty, which shifts us into defend mode and we do not even notice it as it happens.

Only you can decide to end the circle and you do that by looking for the peace you crave so badly, inside yourself (within) and not in the world without. Question the things you have been taught to believe in and whole new world can open up to you. I would suggest that you read "The Four Agreements," by Don Miguel Ruiz and then go to a websitte called TheWork.com It is free, the womans name is Byron Katie and she is the most amazing person.

I hope anything I have said will help you to start viewing life from a new perspective.

Bye for now

Love Lori