Hide My Pain

a lot of my pain is not known by all my friends at school. starting from my family a strange and different from other families.
and problems regarding my brothers. I always hide the lack of it in front of my friends.
playacting in front of them so that all look perfect. I do not want to burden them with my problems.
and I do not want to open a dirty disgrace my family in front of them all. I just felt the bitterness.
ameliasolekha ameliasolekha
13-15, F
2 Responses May 16, 2012

Once you start talking, it will get easier. You are doing great by starting here, where you can get your words out. The hardest job is to figure out who you can trust. You don't want to talk to people who will spread rumors or make you feel bad. May I suggest your school counselor or a trusted teacher? Friends are great, and you should definitely confide in 1 or 2 friends, but teachers/counselors can be a whole lot more helpful because they have access to resources your friends won't. It is scary to talk, I know! You can also try writing what you need to say in a letter and giving it to an adult.

your advice enough helpful..
but I still don't dare tell my problem to the teacher.
I'm embarrassed if this problem known by others as my teacher.
I might still be a story with one of my best friends who can be trusted.

You should talk about it with someone. Maybe one friend you can trust. When you talk about it feels so much better, that you just released everything you held in. Don't think you are a bother, that's what friends are for. To support each other. Go ahead and give it a try.

thanks
yeah I'll try it with a friend who I believe