I Lock Myself Away
Whenever I fall into depression , I tend to lock myself away, hiding how I'm feeling from everyone who knows me.
I feel that I will make situations worse if I "bother" people, so I stay inside and don't answer the phone and don't talk to anyone. If my depression lasts through the week days, and I have to carry it with me to work, I am able to suppress it beneath a smile and go through my days without thinking about it. But as soon as I get off work, I reluctantly return back home as if a dark cloud were following me. And again I hide it from everyone.
I love to lend a listening ear to others who need me, and I KNOW others are the same way. But for some reason, I have a hard time asking for that same support that I offer. So I continue to go through my bouts of depression alone, in silence.