I Do It All The Time
At times when I am aching the most in the inside and I see other people wether it be family, friends or strangers I don't want them to see my feelings.. meaning I don't want them to see how much pain I am in so I do I hide behind a smile. and then just go somewhere where I can be alone for a while and just try to get back to normal. I am usually a happy person and I love to stay that way but you can't blame me for been a human being I have those feelings sometimes too. I remember when my grandmother died my mother was crying for her mom while told me... it hit me so hard because I was so close to her and I never got to say good bye.... I wanted to cry so badly but I didn't I didn't really smile but I tried to calm my mother down by saying is ok, is part of life and I will help you get thru it. Then I went to my room locked the door and cried for hours.... the next day I cut school, I ran away and just cried... my parents didn't know. A few months later my mother asked why I never cried..... And well as my point goes I don't let anyone see how I truly feel I hide behind a smile or something at times.