I Do It All The Time

At times when I am aching the most in the inside and I see other people wether it be family, friends or strangers I don't want them to see my feelings.. meaning I don't want them to see how much pain I am in so I do I hide behind a smile. and then just go somewhere where I can be alone for a while and just try to get back to normal. I am usually a happy person and I love to stay that way but you can't blame me for been a human being I have those feelings sometimes too. I remember when my grandmother died my mother was crying for her mom while told me... it hit me so hard because I was so close to her and I never got to say good bye.... I wanted to cry so badly but I didn't I didn't really smile but I tried to calm my mother down by saying is ok, is part of life and I will help you get thru it. Then I went to my room locked the door and cried for hours.... the next day I cut school, I ran away and just cried... my parents didn't know. A few months later my mother asked why I never cried..... And well as my point goes I don't let anyone see how I truly feel I hide behind a smile or something at times.
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2 Responses Oct 18, 2012

When I kick your ***, then you know meaning of crying. LOL


I know that feeling all to well, but my eyes always give me away

Oh come on. You know how to work those bad boys! Bet you crush the fellas with those puppies!

There is no try. Only do or not do
......and you do

I believe. Are you okay today?

Oh. I am the king of off days. Today was one of many. Carved an arsenic load of pumpkins today. That was the highlight.

Ahhh sorries. I would start drunk ep-ing and stir up some fun then. Full **** up. Ill call em for you and smack some sense into them, yes?

I have that effect on scorps. Hehe. Okay your friend is in my trunk. Grab a bat. Were going to have some fun

Half the fun of a good sense of humor is scaring the **** out of "normal " peeps like the one in my trunk. Ready to let him out?

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