.....It hurts so bad to smile when on the inside I am breaking and shattering like a china dish. I wish there was some one in my life who really understood how I feel. People will tell you they do understand but sometimes I wonder if they actually do. Especially when in the same breath they tell you you need to "let it go" or "get over it". Like I am purposely holding onto it. If it were that easy to permanately get it out my system, don't you think I'd have done it by now???