There Are Things I Desperately Want To Say

There are things I want to say, stories I want to tell and people I want to confront, but I feel I can't. I allowed someone to hurt me and though their actions continue to do so, I don't say anything at all. I keep my feelings locked up and inside where they cannot cause damage, except only to myself. I wish it was easy for me to cut people out of my life, but I have never really been able to do that completely. Maybe I have some irrational hope that things will change and one day they will see what they are doing and stop. I know I also feel a lot of times like I am being emotional and irrational about how I feel. Maybe I am seeing things all wrong and I am the one being selfish. I hate these feelings. Maybe I might be a little selfish at times but I really don't want to keep getting hurt and left feeling like I don't matter. I don't deserve this and I certainly don't want it, but how do I stop it? How do I confront someone and tell them to either change their ways or leave me alone? Or do I just tell them to leave me alone? No, I already know the answer, I most likely will say nothing and pretend all is well and fine.
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May 6, 2012