I Hold Back My Tears
I am an emotional person..'a basket case' some would say and have. I cry at the scene of 'woman running into the arms of a lover-over joyed to see them'...weddings, when someone speaks of an ill child, or when someone else cries, be it happy or sad--I am moved by emotion. I ve cried over a commercial-lol-and dont have me count all the movies that left me sobbing for days afterwords-and even years afterward -to speak of it- be it happy or sad movies. Because I love watching movies and being a hopeless romantic--I am a 'drama' type movie watcher. Maybe its because I identify with or will and wish in some cases, the experiences that movies depict. Who wouldn't want to be the beautiful girl falling in love with the hunky guy and follow the path of an enchanted relationship- through iits highs and lows- but overcome its trials in the end. My hand is raised screaming ..."PICK ME , PICK ME"....!
This is my life-drama- emotion-compassion-heartfelt-real-sympathetic-sorrow -loss-pain-sadness-regret-and emptiness. You ask where is the joy...
Well..believe it or not all of this combined makes me who I am today-and I am not so bad. I'd rather feel the pain of the world then walk through blind to what I can do - If I had the power to make it better or change or create a way or stop or solve-whatever it is that needs or wants. This is the joy..I like being this way.
This is my life-drama- emotion-compassion-heartfelt-real-sympathetic-sorrow -loss-pain-sadness-regret-and emptiness. You ask where is the joy...
Well..believe it or not all of this combined makes me who I am today-and I am not so bad. I'd rather feel the pain of the world then walk through blind to what I can do - If I had the power to make it better or change or create a way or stop or solve-whatever it is that needs or wants. This is the joy..I like being this way.
Age:
41-45
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Female
