I Hold Back My Tears
Almost every day I'm faced with an emotional mountain. I
struggle with being overwhelmed with life and disappointments. I worry and for my children and their struggles. I want life to be so much
easier for them. I agonize of the responsibility I have played in their struggles to get out of poverty, a life I brought them into...I do not regret , I thank God each and every day for
the beautiful gift to bring joy and pride, honor , laughter, memories, loving bonds forever and as a mother I am also their best friend as they are mine.
I fight tears every day when I see animals in the cold , neglected, hungry, abused..so innocent and helpless left to survive in a world of everything so much larger then they are...why hold the tears back...
many wouldn't understand the depth of pain and sorrow i feel in these situations. I limit these episodes to moments when I'm alone...to avoid the typical ''you're too emotional'' ''don't be so mello- drama'' ''why do you take everything so serious''....
this causes frustration. I want to shout and scream when I am told that . I just want to say ..''because unlike you , I am not numb''.
